Wednesday, May 4, 2005

Bukowski wasn't Pretty

You know it's kind of funny. I hated Bukowski when I first read him. My first thought was to how ugly his poems were - how brutally real and honest. He wrote of rape and smashing spiders into oblivion and of drinking too much and hating poets. I recall making a comment somewhere, possibly here, that you'd think, considering his childhood, his physical scars and afflictions - that he'd have written about beautiful things and escaped into his self-made fantasy.

What a complete crock that was. That, dear readers, is what I do. I write pretty words and allow myself to either sink into them, or to lose myself in beating the hell out of them. But then I am no Bukowski, and would simply never get away with writing poetry about raping women or drinking till I puked all over myself, now would I?

But on the other hand, I wonder what a hypocrit I am after the last post I made about making excuses for reality. I don't deal with it, I don't excuse it, I just paint it pretty.

Hypocrit.

10 comments:

  1. Red rose colored glass wearers UNITE! is all I'm sayin'... Anything that keeps ya sane and keep hope alive, I say.... No hypocrites, Erin, only people whom in their heart of hearts hope against hope that life isn't all about dark and selfish hearts whom dare not reach out from their selves for fear of seeming weak. We reach, us rose colored glass wearers and strive to see the good in everything even if life kicks the ever-lovin' shit out of us and leaves us on thisside of death at the side of the road gasping fer a liverwurst sandwich and a Ho Ho, oh, and a cold glass of milk. >grin< Those things would be nice after all of that, no? :-D HUGS and ~ML~

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  2. I guess if I believed for a minute there was a Hoho and a glass of milk waiting for me - I might just get rosey hoping for it myself.

    But I tell you what Mikey ole pal - tell me the silver lining in a 12 day old baby's death, or 6 yr old child drown to death by her own mother, and I'll give you a hoho and some milk myself, cuz I'm not finding the "good side" to these things.

    Forgive me - I'm letting my inner peesimist type for me.

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  3. I wonder what in hell a peesimist is?

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  4. A cynical urinater? Or would that be urinat-or? I like it better with an "o." Sounds like a super-hero. "Don't worry, Ma'am, Cynical Urinator is here!" Maybe to pee on the feet of the depressed make them realize it's better to be pissed off than pissed on? Anyway, I have to go to work, but check your mail for the latest lilac pic. I have frozen PSP twice trying to size it right. Accidentally hit 6000 wide instead of 600. DOH!

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  5. No, you're right, Erin, there is no sense to be made of things like that. The sun still rises, Howard Stern continues to talk about "banging some broad," people still commute to and from work, cigars and smoked, brandy sipped, decisions made behind closed doors that effect you and me and life as we know it on this planet, hon. You'd think the horro of some of these things would make people stop and notice, make the universe stop spinning, but no. We appease each other's sensibilities by telling ourselves and each other there's someone out there who has it worse and we're left to our own devices tending to the raw wounds we desparately wish life would finally scab over only to be wounded again and again. And then we put on our "rose colored glasses" and show our face to the sun and smile at the world. Yeah, right. I'm with ya, hon. Believe you me, I'm with you.

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  6. You don't work in commodities for 21 years without becoming a cynic. Horro? Is that like Zorro? Some cosmic bandito slashing H's all over the universe? :-) I hate typos! LOL

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  7. ...ya forgot about the liverwurst sandwich. It's the the "cranberry" of sandwiches. Everyone forgets the liverwurst sandwich! :-)

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  8. Haha Urinator? I have no idea where that came from, but it was worth a giggle. I love when I make a pissy post and you people make comments that make me laugh when I come back.

    Mike, I don't see "Horro" anywhere - but again, a good giggle, because we used to call a girl in highschool that.

    And I didn't "forget" the liverwurst - there's a reason it has "worst" in the name *gag!*

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  9. There hasn't been a good adult cartoon since Ren & Stimpy, although The Family Guy's pretty good, but the Urinator, now ya got somethin' Erin! LOL Ya gotta run with this one!

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  10. The Cynical Urinator came from Erin herself when she said, "I wonder what in hell a peesimist is?" in reference to her own typo. I'd watch a cartoon like that. Sorry I don't have anything more illuminating or pep-talky for you. I am leaning more toward comic versus philisophical relief these days...

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