Wednesday, March 19, 2014


When I was young, really up until 2005 or so, I was really thin. 98lbs for most of my life. As I get older, I'm gaining weight, and for the most part, I'm actually glad. 98 lbs is too skinny on my frame. And I do not miss the constant comments about being anorexic, or needing a cheeseburger.
But I admit, being 40+ and somewhat suddenly being forced to learn a new body image, & learning to overcome new body image related insecurities, is a challenge.
I'm not claiming to be over weight, I'm not, and I know it... but my days of having 6 pack abs are in the past, and the future seems to include a bit of a muffin top.
It's disconcerting, to be honest. It's not that I hate my body - I'm really ok without a bikini bridge, and I'm pretty sure thighs are indeed supposed to touch, I just have to remember what I should expect when I look in the mirror. I'm still oddly shocked at the muffin top thing every time I (re) discover it.