I hate my voice.
I think that is probably the basis for my hesitancy about talking to people on the phone; I despise the sound of my voice when recorded or transmitted over any electronic device. I refuse to leave voice mail messages, I have never made a recording of my voice for use on the web. The nurses in the hospital suggested that we make recordings to play for Nova while we weren't there. I couldn't do it because I couldn't stand the thought of him having to listen to the sound of my recorded voice for any length of time.
I don't mind my speaking voice in person. As a matter of fact, I never even give it a thought when I'm talking to someone sitting beside me, but the idea of other people hearing my voice via some electronic device really makes me cringe. I am insanely jealous of people with beautiful voices.
So I've called the ODEO number at least ten times, with every intention of reading the last poem I posted. I keep hanging up on it. I can't seem to make myself speak into the phone. It's a shame. It's also something I really need to get over, because I believe that it really does add something to a piece to hear it read in the author's own voice, with the proper emphasis and tone...