Seems I'm in draft mode. I've taken to using blogger as my word processor - starting a piece doing all my revision work, leaving it as a draft to simmer a while and coming back later for a 2nd or 3rd look before I post. I find myself copy and pasting into word from here rather than the opposite. Unfortunately, lately, everything is just sitting there, saved as a draft, unfinished. Some of them are just brainstorming sessions, a strange collection of thoughts, ideas, single words, phrases... I just can't finish anything. I am suffering a sad lack of motivation.
The worst part is that it's not just my poetry suffering from this deficiency. My housework is half done, my marketing has sort of crawled into the corner, I have paperwork, doctors appointments, laundry, and baby preparation that I need to do, but, well, I'm not doing them, you know?
I'll do them tomorrow, I'll do them tomorrow - but instead I start another poem I don't finish. Or take a nap - I finish those up pretty well.
I DID manage to accomplish two more submissions, one of which was to Melic Review - they're shutting down! Can you believe that? heh. Anyway, I've never submitted to them before, but somehow I couldn't resist doing so for their final issue due out in December. And I submitted to TMP Irregular - I skipped a few issues in between since my last submission. I actually finished submitting to both places too! But then, how hard is it to copy/paste/send?
Lately I just feel overwhelmed, anything that requires more than 15 minutes of time and effort is just more than I can handle. It isn't helping any that I can't sleep worth shit lately - getting to sleep earlier than 3am is unheard of lately. And GOD am I hungry! You know how you "want something" and go on the refrigerator raid? Well, I want something, and can't figure out what it is - but I've pretty successfully eaten everything in the house trying.
2:26am ... Let's see if I can sleep...