Sunday, September 25, 2005

Yes, I feel sorry for myself.

They should make some sort of contraption for women in their third trimester, constructed of velvet and satin, but breathable - something padded and soft and supportive, with heat, massage and deep massage options for all of the things that ache, twinge, pang and generally hurt - for all the things that feel as though they're coming apart or in peril of falling off. I need lumbar support, abdominal support, deep massage between my shoulder blades and heat packs on my neck. I need something to stop my feet from swelling and something to control these uncontrollable hormones.

It should also come with relaxation tapes and prenatal xanax pills - the closer I get to labor and delivery the more I freak out. You'd think it would be old hat by now wouldn't you? It isn't. I'm more anxious now than with any of other pregnancies. More miserable and whiney too. I am just too old for this.

They have for years referred to pregnancy as a 'delicate condition' but it's never felt that way before. Hell, I worked through my entire pregnancy with Terra, hefting trays over my head over 14 hour shifts of being the only waitress on duty some days, and never thought twice about it. This time though, I'm feeling delicate, breakable, somehow helpless.

How disgustingly female.


  1. Nothing wrong with having the occasional femanine moment, you know, what with you being female and all. :-P I don't mean this in a bad way, but sometimes I think you expect yourself to be too strong and unphased. It's admirable, but sometimes you need to just let yourself be.

    I love you, E!!

  2. lol, trust me - lately, I have just been being - but you're probably right, I dislike being weak, or being perceived as weak... Probably something I should work on.

    Now, young lady, what are you doing up at 1 am!?

    Love you too, muchly!

  3. I think every pregnancy is different E. I'm sure you're more of an expert on this than I am, but by the time I was in my 5th month I was absolutely miserable. Miserable to the point that I couldn't walk due to pinched nerves. And by month seven I was on bedrest completely. My friend, however, worked up until the day she had her baby. Ugh! My step-mom was out riding dirtbikes when she was in her ninth month!

    So go ahead, feel sorry for yourself. Get the kids to fix themselves dinner, put your feet up and just relax.

  4. I know you're right Ang... With Tommy I was on bed redst early, with Terra I worked all nine months. With Kory I was miserable, with Kassi I was one of those glowy-cheery disgusting women...

    All I have to say is:

    Thank god there's only 3 months to go!

  5. Well, to be perfectly honest, Jay didn't come home from boys night (it is now 10:12am Sunday and still no phone call and no Jay) so I was up late waiting. I am trying not to let my mind get away from me, but this is very unlike him...

  6. E2, don't you hate that. He will walk in shortly without a care and look at you like, "why were you worried?" Used to drive me insane.

  7. Man, Scott has never done this to me - I'm such a worry wart that I used to go apeshit with panic if he was a few hours late from work!

    I'd be a worried nervous wreck with homicidal tendencies if he stayed out all night!

  8. E, I'm sorry you're having such a rough time right now. There really should be something they can do to make you more comfortable.

    What you describe above only happened to me a couple of times and not recently. Men are so inconsiderate when they are with other men. I think it is a sign of weakness to consider the people waiting for you at home.

  9. lol that's exactly it V. They don't want the other guys to think they're pussy whipped and have to "check in" But god help us if we were to do the same!


    My first husband used to do it - a LOT, but Scotty has never tried it. But the lat time I freaked out about Scott being late I learned my lesson though. I met him at the car (like the good nagging horrible wife does) and started yelling at him for not calling me or whatever. He didn't say a word - he just flashed me his middle finger...
    which happened to be bandanged up the size of an orange - the reason he was late? He had been at the hospital having his finger stitched back together from nearly cutting it off at work.

    I still think he could have had them call me!

  10. Well, he's back and says he didn't call because he didn't want to wake me up... I have let him know that that's not acceptable. I'll let it go this time, but if it happens again, I will go ape shit.

  11. lol I told you that's what he'd say!

    Not only are men inconsiderate, they're predictable

  12. I knew you were going to say that!

  13. Congratulations on your pregnancy. Some days I wish I had another baby, but then I remember the sleepness nights. LOL plus, I am getting too old for that. Too cranky too. ;)