Sunday, May 23, 2010

1st post in a whole different kind of blog for me...

I have to admit, I'm a facebook addict - but really, how much can you say in so few characters? It isn't enough to be the cathartic therapy that true blogging is for me. And rightnow in my life, I need a place to vent, a way to release, and a platform on which I can talk myself through to the resolution of my issues. Oh and the issues are many lately!

It's funny, I thought when Terra started Kindergarten, I'd be starting a new chapter in my life. All of a sudden I find myself in a 3 br house, with all 5 of my children living back home - the oldest 2 are adults, and came with their wife/fiance... and one has a baby on the way. Let's do a head count, 'k? Scott and I and our three younger kids Kassi (15) Bren (12) and Terra (6) then Kory (19) moved back in, with his fiance Angela (19) and Tommy (20) and his wife Alec (20) who is expecting their first child in September - plus 2 small dogs, a pit bull mix (indoor dogs) and one husky mix (outside). Then Angela moved out... but she actually stays here most of the time anyway.

And all of a sudden, my house is absolute chaos all.the.damn.time. My younger 3 used to be well behaved, followed the rules, and were perfectly capable of being here alone for a few hours without any major incidents. Now, even with all the extra adults in the house, the younger ones are completely out of control if Scott and I both are out of the house. We both work, out of necessity. There are times when I've left for work, but Scott isn't home from his job yet. Guess what? Those are the times I get phone calls at work about how bad the kids are being, or how they won't listen, or aren't following the rules.

Dear god help us. They can't "control" my pretty-damn-well-behaved-if-I-do-say-so-myself 6 year old, what are they going to do when they have their very own child to care for?

So Kory has a really great job, with benefits, and serious advancement opportunity. He and Angela will be moving out into their own place within a month. I'm hoping that pans out, but to be honest, I'm not holding my breath - honestly, I'm not sure he'll be able to afford it just yet. We'll see.

Tommy's job, well, he does pretty much the same thing Kory does but for a shittier company for less pay, and doesn't get a lot of hours. He was out of work for a long time, so I'm glad he has a job, but this one really isn't helping him and his wife get on their feet. No way in H-E-Double Hockey Sticks that job is going to support the THREE of them - and his wife refuses to even consider getting a job. She's much too busy being pitifully pregnant.

My job is sucking lately, and I'd love to look forward to coming home. But home is a messy place, full of way too many people who don't clean up after themselves or pitch in to keep the house running smoothly. And, it smells like fucking dogs in here damn it.

I want my life back!

1 comment:

  1. Say something. If you want them to clean up, tell them to. It's much less healthy to keep it inside. Because one day it all comes out. Then it's not pretty. Or at least that's the way I am. I do understand from where it is that you're coming from.