Resolution's are useless... just opportunities to fail, which of course, I always do. I have no will power. So a few years ago, I made one last resolution: to forsake all New Year's resolutions, and that one I've never broken! In other words, I'm not making any New Year's resolutions. But I do like Cheryl's idea of New Year's Revelations. Rather than swear to change, I will instead share something I've learned over the course of 2006. 2006 was full of lessons. Most of them boiled down to truth - and just how transient truth is, based on our perspective.
"Don't spend your precious time asking 'Why isn't the world a better place?' It will only be time wasted. The question to ask is 'How can I make it better?' To that there is an answer." ~Leo F. BuscagliaMy truth is that losing Nova has given me the opportunity to make a choice. Shut down, or open up. With Alexis, I had the same options and made a different decision, and thereby, learned a different lesson.
My truth is that people die when it's their time to go, not because there is some lesson being forced on you - but that we can choose to take that time to learn a lesson of our own choosing.
My truth is that, while I've been through some major shit this year, I've read some of your posts and feel that in many ways, some of you have been through much worse. And that hardship shouldn't be a pissing contest because there's no damn prize for bearing the biggest cross.
My truth is that finding myself in the dark has served to highlight the beauty found in the contrast of shade against sunlight, and taught me to appreciate more fully how the sun feels on my cheeks, especially when it's drying my tears.
And like Cheryl, my truth is also that I don't have the time or energy or motivation to embrace other people's negativity or selfish pettiness - and that I don't need to feel badly about that. That today could be my last, and I don't owe it to anyone else to waste it lost in their darkness if they've chosen to ignore the light.
And one final truth is that all of this could be bullshit tomorrow (or might have been bullshit a few hours ago) because perspective can change with the slightest shift of the eye.
Happy 2007 all - hope you're feelng at peace with your universe, and are able to accept the transience of your truth in a way that gives you a clearer perspective.